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they say it's good for ya

either...

• im more saddened by breakups than i thought,
• im about to go into a lunar phase  or
• i need some.

because i have just binged on chocolate. i couldnt get enough of it. tongue orgasms, really. the caloric intake is in the 'got dayum' levels but we will burn it off...

one friday nite...

...sipping on plum wine trying to figure it all out on this misty friday nite. on one hand, all is well. we are alive, healthy and happy. on the other hand, i feel like a huge failure where fasting is concerned. okay, the failure moment is done. poof....be gone!

other women are getting all dolled up tonite. putting their best freak'em dresses on; their best mac faces...to be seen or to be chosen. yet, they will all swear that they are 'at the spot' to unwind. being a woman in 2009 america is funny like that sometimes.

my current struggles include (but are not limited to): not taking on other people's energy; holding my bff's hand as she goes through a 

 nasty divorce; and dealing with my own growth (and lack there of). 

i havent decided yet if it is narcissism that entertains my need to hold mirrors up and stare at fears and ugly parts. but for whatever reason, i get a kick out of cocoon and butterfly stages, alike.

i have decided to stop using a word processor to finish the manuscripts. i need more str

ucture that what wp give. i am not disciplined enough for that much blank space. do you know what happens for me, with th

at much space? you guessed it...nothing! the blank space seems to grow into massive whiteness; resounding emptiness. nothing to prompt me back. i'm sucking it up and purchasing some software. the bootleg software sucks rotten eggs. tired of not being able to completely finish a project in a consistent space/document.